I was thinking the other day about all of my obsessions, and it occured to me...I love 'evil', bad, tormented things. Just look.

My Fandoms
- Metallica
- Draco Malfoy
- Slytherins [in general]
- Vampires [The Vampire Chronicles in particular]


I love things that aren't accepted by the general public as things to be obsessed with. Metallica is generally a band that by the conservative public as a band to stay away from, and is vastly misunderstood by the musical community (we're talking post-St. Anger here). Metallica has always been there for me musically, and some of the songs make me cry simply because of how much I can relate to James and his experiences. I love the guitar riffs, I love the take it or fuck it attitude that these boys have been portraying for over 2 decades, and honestly...with the emo-hardxcore-scene that's consumed our culture as of late, Metallica isn't a popular band anymore. But I've been a fan, loyal and true, to these boys, and will never stop loving them.

Draco Malfoy is just a bad boy. He's so misunderstood, and is driven to actions that you wouldn't even imagine a boy at his age to be able to comprehend, let alone accomplish. We saw that in Half-Blood Prince he took upon his own being to save his family and his mother, and put himself in grave danger to save the Malfoy name. Draco is powerful, arrogant, and ambitious to a tee, and that to me...is sexy as hell. He's so...mystifying to me, and I can only imagine what it would be like to have sex with such a powerful man. Yes, I am fantasizing about a man in fiction, but when have we all not done that? We find things that aren't real, and we glorify them to a status of reality. This makes them more identifiable. But Draco is the epitome of arrogance in the Harry Potter series, and that arrogance draws me into his character.

The obsession with Draco Malfoy goes along with my general obsession of Slytherins. It's not because I'm hardxcore or goth or whatever, it's because I believe that I identify the most with this group of individuals. I am a person am a liar, a manipulator, extremely judgemental, and extremely close-minded. These qualities are the trademark of the Slytherin house, and the people in it just fascinate me. My favorite Harry Potter character has to be Pansy Parkinson, because she's that bitch that everyone hates but loves at the same time. She is who she is, she makes no appologies, and is loyal to her friends, if that's what you would call them. They all only care about themselves, and friendship is extremely limited. I would find myself in this house. Bob would probably be a Ravenclaw...

Then, the same thing goes with Vampires. I know for most of you, this is going to be far too much information, but I have such a dominatrix side of me. I love biting/being bite, and it does something to me. The characters in the Vampire Chronicles identify with me so much, their epic struggles of finding who they are with all of their time. They have eternity to wander the Earth, but then they don't know who they are. The loneliness of their exsistance drives them to madness, and that madness is my fandom. I read, and re-read the books over and over again, trying to figure out who these creatures of the night are, but I can't. Anne Rice writes in a way that you know only as much as they do, and the characters are seemingly holding your hand as they escort you through their lives. When you read the books, you are a vampire, looking in on a world that isn't your own. The ultimate escape.

Is there something wrong with being obsessed with commonly described as 'evil' or 'dark' things?